TO ALL WHO BEAR MY DNA

Today I decided to start my new endeavor, adding it to the all-ready stack of things to do before my clock stops ticking. I never seem to know what will act as a catalyst and today it was another poem ticking away in my attic.  When I first started writing, way back when just about all of my inspirations came from my own pain or the pain I envisioned others were having. 

From the bandstand I was able to see a myriad of life and lives in all stages of growth and decay.  One such observation brought about one of my songs, a touch of empathy I would suspect, mixed with the observation and fear of stepping on the wrong path.

That fool is Me, (http://ronsmarbles.blogspot.com/2018/03/that-fool-is-me.html  )

The spark today seemed to have hit much closer to home, causing me to do a priority check on my to-do list.  All of a sudden the items “get my children to forgive me” and “help anyone who cares, to know me” jumped up on the list by substantial numbers.

WHO ARE YOU © Ron Burres    3/18/2018

I stood there looking at him, quizzically

As if I had just recognized him from the past.

He seemed so different than when I had seen him last. 

His eyes had changed, they weren’t the same

It was like looking into a fire that had no flame.

He was much older than I remember

Such a change from spring to December

It always surprises me how we neglect to see

All those many things we don’t want to be

I guess it just so much easier if we just look

Today as I looked into his eyes

Into the depths of his heart and soul

I saw the pain of not knowing what best to do

The sorrow of lost chance smothered by time

Unable to show how much he loves you.

1. THE JOURNEY or OMG WHAT WAS I THINKING

Years ago I started a poem, one that would look at the birth sequence and the life of a human being.  It was going to be an epic poem that pertained and looked at the travels a person went through during his life.  Well like so many other projects it has gone neglected and covered with dust and cobwebs.
This whole Don't Lose My Marbles project was an undertaking designed to give my offspring and theirs some kind of understanding of one half of whom they sprang from..  So I have now decided that the Journey project will continue not as an epic poem but as some semblance of a journal as seen through the memory, (rapidly failing as it may be), with as much honesty as I can grasp ahold of today.
          OMG WHAT WAS I THINKING
THE JOURNEY BEGINS (c) Ron Burres

A jolt

Conception,   A joining of energy.

Life energy flowing quickly,

Molecules transformed into being.

Energy’s choice, This womb, This place.

Putting away past banks of memory,

To experience difference, change,

 Another life, to be born anew,

Another life journey I begin.

2

Is it again

Hints of past being fade

In their place rhythmic motion

A flowing ebbing sensation

Energy of another flowing through I

Not of I, but joining with.

Then experience

Throbbing sound, a giant heart, 

Pumping life fluid to I,

Awareness of warmth, safety, security

Surrounded by embryonic shell and womb.

3

As I grows

Awareness of something more

Thoughts coming not from I

But yet into and becoming part

Influencing the I

Suddenly

There is fear.  I know I am not wanted

How strong that is known

There now a part, how to be loved

I will gain all that is needed.

What is is existence. 

The journey begins.

PROCRASTINATION AGAIN...LONG TIME NO WRITE. HMMMMMMMMM

Once again I take my time being perfect (impossible, but still using the excuse).  It's been a long time since I added anything to my marbley thoughts and rememberances.  That's what can happen when you do things to get acknowledgement from others.  There are somethings in life you do just because.
Writing for me is one of those things.  However, this last period of inactivity has been the non-product of feeling it's all a waste of time and effort if I'm the only one interested in reading about me, myself, and I.
At this time in my life I finally have the time and inclination to examine what in the heck happened during the last 3/4's of a century and why I've made some of the decissions, good  and bad.  In sharing these mental meanderings perhaps my children, grandchildren, great grandchildren and all those yet to come may gain some insight into their own lives.  That hope of possible use, although not instant gratification, hopefully will help me to continue to share with the unknown reader.

SPECIAL NOTES TO SPECIAL PEOPLE

Some thoughts that I ran across today
that covered somethings I would like to say
but it appears that someone else beat me to the punch
so I'll just pass them on.  For my grand children.  There ain't no free lunch
Luv u Gramps
rb

You cannot help the poor by destroying the rich.
You cannot strengthen the weak by weakening the strong.
You cannot bring about prosperity by discouraging thrift.
You cannot lift the wage earner up by pulling the wage payer down.
You cannot further the brotherhood of man by inciting class hatred.
You cannot build character and courage by taking away people's initiative and independence.
You cannot help people permanently by doing for them, what they could and should do for themselves.                         A. Lincoln

Bill Gates recently gave a speech at a High School about eleven (11) things they did not and will not learn in school.
He talks about how feel-good, politically correct teachings created a generation of kids with no concept of reality and
how this concept set them up for failure in the real world.
Rule 1 : Life is not fair - get used to it!
Rule 2 : The world doesn't care about your self-esteem.  The world will expect you to accomplish something
BEFORE you feel good about yourself.
Rule 3 : You will NOT make $60,000 a year right out of high school.   You won't be a vice-president with a car phone until you earn both.
Rule 4 : If you think your teacher is tough, wait till you get a boss

Rule 5 : Flipping burgers is not beneath your dignity. Your Grandparents had a different word for burger flipping:
They called it opportunity.
Rule 6 : If you mess up, it's not your parents' fault, so don't whine about your mistakes, learn from them.
Rule 7 : Before you were born, your parents weren't as boring as they are now. They got that way from paying your bills,
cleaning your clothes and listening to you talk about how cool you thought you were:
So before you save the rain forest from the parasites of your parent's generation,
try delousing the closet in your own room..
Rule 8 : Your school may have done away with winners and losers, but life HAS NOT. In some schools, they have abolished failing grades, and they'll give you as MANY TIMES as you want to get the right answer.
*This doesn't bear the slightest resemblance to ANYTHING in real life.
Rule 9 : Life is not divided into semesters.  You don't get summers off and very few employers
are interested in helping you FIND YOURSELF. *Do that on your own time.
Rule 10 : Television is NOT real life.  In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs.
Rule 11 : Be nice to nerds.  Chances are you'll end up working for one..